Sweet Dreams

I just had to share this story. My phone rang around 9 this morning. I answered and it was my sweet friend, Kelly.

Kelly, lives across the street from us and her precious daughter, Kiersten, and our Reagan are just the best of friends. Kelly, is expecting her second child and our family is beyond excited for her and this precious blessing from the Lord!

Kelly called and said she just had to tell me about a dream she had last night! She said in her dream it was hot, like a hot South Carolina summer day and our Maddox was home! She went to the park and as she got out of her car, Reagan and Dawson were up on the climbing mountain. Reagan’s hair was soaked from sweat and Dawson had sand all over his face.
Just the details bring me to tears because this is exactly how a summer day at the park would be for us!

She said, Reagan called out to her and said,” Mrs. Kelly, Maddox is here! Maddox is home!” And she looked up and there we were. I was pushing my boy on the swing. She said his face was SO clear it was like it was really happening and she woke herself up crying!

Oh my goodness! How I would have loved to have that dream! I think it would have almost been more than I could handle! Just hearing it brought tears to my eyes! What a sweet blessing this morning! Maybe he WILL be home this Summer?

My closest friends can tell you I often run with things like this and turn everything into a “sign”! In fact, early in our adoption journey I was certain we were supposed to adopt a little boy from India after our waitress at Olive Garden was from there.. True story!

I’ll try and contain my excitement this go around but wouldn’t that be the best blessing ever!?!? Thank you, Kelly! That call this morning warmed a waiting mama’s heart! I’ll treasure that thought and hope Maddox will join us all at the park this summer! ūüôā


Making his blog debut..

Maddox Jeong-hwan

I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.
—1 Samuel 1:27





KISSES IN THE WIND¬†¬†¬† (The Waiting Child’s Lullabye)

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that’s how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are… what’s taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin…
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I’m doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you’ll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.

— ¬© Pamela Durkota, written for Josh


*~*~*Scentsy Fundraiser*~*~*~

¬†I’m super excited about¬†introducing one of our new fundraisers! We have partnered with a good friend of ours who is a consultant for Scentsy and she has offered to set us¬†up with an “online catalog party”.¬†It’s a win/win situation¬†with every purchase you will be getting a great product and¬†20% of your purchase cost will be helping us bring Maddox home! : )¬†¬†¬†

 To check out the products and order from our Scentsy Fundraiser use this link :


I have samples of each of the scents if you’d like give them a “sniff”! : ) And if you aren’t familiar with Scentsy here is a blurb from their website:

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Thanks for your support!


This morning our legals arrived by Fed Ex.

Basically, Legals are a set of 3 documents ~ a record of his birth, statement that the agency in Korea is his guardian, and a statement transferring guardianship to our US agency.

As I scanned through each paper I was suddenly frozen. I had heard it would be there but didn’t consider the impact it would have on me. I couldn’t take my eyes off of it. Her fingerprint. The woman who gave my son life. I took my finger and rubbed it across the page. This could be all I ever know of her. What emotions she must have felt that day. I cannot begin to fathom.

I place my thumb over her thumb. We are forever connected. She was the one who carried my son in her womb. It was her voice he heard as he grew. And although I have yet to meet this sweet boy, my son, he grew in my heart. I do believe this was all God’s plan. That’s even hard to type.

“As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the maker of all things.” ~ Ecclesiastes 11:5 NIV

I’ll never know why God chose Maddox to be our son but I’m thankful for the woman who brought us together. I’ll never understand her pain but I will pray for her always. She gave him life and I get to share life with him. We are forever connected.

**I know many of you are curious. We have gotten many questions regarding his birth mother but have decided to keep her story private. This is Maddox’s story to tell. We will leave it up to him as to when and if he’s comfortable with sharing.**

Jenny gets married….



¬†Last night my baby sister married the man of her dreams. It was straight out of a fairy tale. Well except for the part that the sister of the bride cried…all day long! ūüôā¬†I want to blog more about all the fun we had¬†at the Hicks/Matthews wedding weekend extravaganza but I’m completely wiped out. Instead, I wanted¬†share my¬†Matron of honor speech since it¬†pretty much sums up how I felt about this union :

¬† Jenny and I are just 16 months apart. I can’t remember life without her. In fact, some of my fondest memories revolve around backyard mud pies and playing teacher. We had all those¬†typical little girl conversations about marrying our prince and riding off into the sunset. And as is the case for all of those types of dreams the prince is always a little fuzzy and you just can’t quite make out his face. Standing here tonight, looking at¬†these two, I can assure you Jenny has found her prince. And as it turns out he has a pretty nice face after¬†all!

I think this quote sums up my relationship with my baby sister- ” She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion,someone¬†who knows you are smiling¬†, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your¬†defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she’s the reason you wish you were an only child” Jenny, I’m thankful you are all those things for me and more!

¬† I’ve always been “the crier”. She picks on me literally once a week for crying. Today, I’m not crying because I’m sad. I’m crying because I’m overflowing with happiness at the woman my baby sister has become. She is gorgeous, and witty. She is honest, and hard-working. She just graduated with her second degree, landed her dream job, and today she married her best friend. I’m a proud big sister!

¬† I remember meeting Bryant for the first time when he came with Jenny to my son, Dawson’s 1st birthday party.¬† I remember thinking how perfectly he meshed with our family. Well, that and this boy can eat! But seriously, it was just like he had been in our family forever. And what was increasingly apparent as I got to know him was how much he adores my sister. I asked him what he loved most about Jenny and he responded, “I love that she always things of me first and would do anything for me. She is the most thoughtful person I know.” And then he threw in…”It doesn’t hurt that she’s a 10!”

¬†As for Jenny, the love she has for Bryant is apparent every single time she talks about him. She gushes. It’s really cute. It makes my heart smile to know the love that these two have for one another. I also asked Jenny what she loved most about Bryant and she responded, “He’s my best friend, an incredible listener, and he knows how to cook a pretty mean taco.”

My advice to you today as you begin this marriage is to me the only advice I know to give. Don’t just keep Christ in the center. Just as you’ve done at the ceremony intertwine Him into the very fabric of your marriage. He is the only way to happiness together and He will continue to grow and flourish your relationship beyond what even seems imaginable. When things seem tough (and at some point they will) always remember “The joy of the Lord is your strength” – Nehemiah 8:10 and He will provide all your needs.

Jenny, I love you so much and nothing makes me happier to know that today you’ve found your forever happiness. This very moment, seeing you in that dress, with that smile, and your very best friend by your side is something I’ve waited for my entire life. I cannot wait to watch you journey into this new chapter of your life.

 Bryant, Thank you for loving my sister with your whole heart. Thank you for being her prince and for bringing her all the happiness in the world. I am so excited to welcome you into our family and look forward to having you as a brother.

  I love your both more than words can express and wish you happiness that lasts an eternity. It now gives me immense pleasure to invite you all to stand and raise your glasses in  a toast to the new Mr. and Mrs. Bryant Hicks. May your love be like the wind, strong enough to move the clouds, soft enough to never hurt but always and never-ending. Cheers.

And yes…It did go on and on and on… : ) This was the only chance I will ever get to give this speech and I had to squish it all in. More wedding fun posts to come soon. Now…a nap!

This is the Paperwork that never ends. Yes, it goes on and on my friends…

 I got the most amazing news on Thursday morning. Our agency called to tell us that they were emailing our acceptance paperwork over. Things are moving and moving quickly!

¬†So, maybe I was naive but I was thinking we sign a few papers saying I don’t know, “We accept” and we are good to go.

¬† Hee Hee…Hee.

I was wrong. Oh my goodness, the paperwork! It’s everywhere!!!

¬†What’s exciting about THIS¬†paperwork is it’s the paperwork that once sent to Korea begins the process to bring Maddox home on their side. So, essentially Maddox “could” be home as soon as 4 months from now! That’s the end of August, folks!!! On the other hand, it could be the end of December. Either way, he is coming home and from the way it looks right now it will most likely be this year. Of course, nothing in the adoption world is set in stone and things could change with a moments notice.

¬†I’ll spare you all the details but God has provided this week in ways that are beyond imaginable.

¬†As I reflect back on all the happenings of this week these verses comes to mind.¬†Our God¬†¬†hears our¬†prayers and when¬†they are¬†His will for us he¬†provides for our needs….ALL¬†of them. Right down to the itty bitty details.

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.¬† And if we know that he hears us‚ÄĒwhatever we ask‚ÄĒwe know that we have what we asked of him. ~ 1 John 5:14-15

And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. ~ Philippians 4:19

 This is EXCITING!

Just what I needed to hear!

Just yesterday I stated David and I were in need of an update. Today I’m pleased to say we received our April “Well Baby Check”.

Our baby boy is thriving! He’s 19.8 pounds! Creeps, plays patty cake, responds to his name, imitates speech!

As far as eating and nutrition it says “moderate”. Not sure what that means but I’ll take it! He is only drinking formula as of now which seems to be pretty typical for Korea.

Ugh, it’s SO good to just hear something! Is it bad that I’m ok with the fact that he’s not sitting up or trying to crawl? Stay a baby, Maddox! We will be there soon!!

On another happy note, just before we received his WBC our agency here in South Carolina sent us the rough draft of our home study to approve! I’ll be sending it back today and then it just needs to be notarized and sent to our agency in Oregon and then off to Korea (HSTK).
This is what we’ve been waiting on! I couldn’t be happier! As I said yesterday, I had changed my mental timeline to have this step completed by the end of the month! So, I’m pleasantly surprised it could be marked off the list by the end of the week!!!!

Our Opinionated Super Hero!


2 1/2 year olds suddenly have opinions. What’s up with that? The one that belongs to me has developed an obsession with Buzz Lightyear and has also decided he hates shoes.

I picked him up a super precious pair at the outlets over the weekend. He was not a fan. I convinced him they were super hero shoes….he doesn’t want to take them off! Score 1 for me!

Ah, nothing like a little reverse psychology to prevent ring worms…

Aren’t they cute!?! Notice the Toy Story socks he MUST where with them!